There Ain't No Cure For the Wintertime Blues

As the days get shorter and darker it can be tough to be in good spirits.  Recently several of my friends have told me the weather makes them feel depressed.  The following are three tips to help us all survive winter.

1) Stay active.  I know it is asking the most of you. Time and time again physical activity has proven to boost mood and energy.  All I am asking from you is 25 minutes three times a week.  Join a run or walking group, swim, walk your dog.  You can do it and you'll feel so much better.  Not too mention you can enjoy those holiday treats coming up with a clear conscious!

2) Stay social or get out of your home.  Make plans to either meet friends or take yourself to dinner or coffee.  Make small plans that you look forward to.  Of course if you can book a vacation.  It doesn't have to be elaborate.  Have goals for the week that involve things you enjoy with people you enjoy.  These small events will help the long winter hours go by.

3) Relax.  It is pouring rain, or ice rain or snowing. You are always allowed, guilt free to snuggle up and eat your favourite meal.  You don't need to always be rushing around the town.  It's about balance.  While I do personally think you should relax in a clean house.  Relaxing, getting enough sleep, drinking water and stretching are all great for your health.  Relax.

Balance. Depression I think comes easily if you're too busy all the time and exhaust yourself or if you never have plans and get lonely.  I hope you find your perfect balance and stay happy this winter. Thanks for reading. 

I F#cked Up

Of course it was through truly empathizing with Mr. Big and The Maverick (names to be explained another day) that I questioned why women acted so cruel.  Sadly I realized that I was a woman and had definitely broken men's egos in the past.  It made me realize the following detrimental points and hopefully made me grow as a person.

1) Rather than respect that the men I loved were perfect for someone else, and walk away, I wanted to fit them in my heart shaped box.  I wanted them to be the person I wanted.  I wanted them to love me so much that they would be a different person.  What an a$$hole I was.  And, more importantly a fool.  I broke men so much they left or I left them, and for what?  Things could have ended so much more simply. 

2) I didn't know how happy our differences could make us.  Rather than accept that they were one way and I was another, and celebrate, I wanted to control things.  So much happiness and appreciation was lost.  I could not understand that it was possible to love someone in their singular entirety and this made me lose good men who I hope are being appreciated by someone nothing like who I use to be.  Accepting and complementing goes so far in creating an amazing foundation for the future.

3) I wanted everything picture perfect.  I wanted the Christmas card and the facebook status.  I wanted the vacations and for life to be just perfect and I didn't realize the pressure that put on my man.  I never thought that my demands stressed him out and made him feel inadequate.  I never thought my goals would weigh on him.  To make goals together and build each other up to them was what I should have been open to.

And, we all want to be loved. Even the most dashing bachelors want to be loved. It is beyond love though, it is truly being loved for who you are.  Not who you could be or want to be.  But, to fully be loved for just you.  That is what we all forget to try to do sometimes. XO

What a Mighty Good Man

Between being a shoulder to lean on for a guy who you think has everything and the object of lust of a dangerously attractive Maverick I noticed that men need some serious TLC.  In fact their egos may be more fragile than I once assumed.  And, all it took was a small act of kindness in telling them how special they are for them both to open up about how they had felt the opposite and it made me wonder about the following. (In writing this post I also made a startling revelation of where I had so simply failed the men I have loved).

1) We are worrying ourselves into depression.  I came to realise even when you're the nicest guy in town with everything going for you; or a smoldering fox with George Clooney potential you worry.  You worry you won't have or maybe don't even want to have kids, or get married, and other social norms, and that this is a failure on your part.  Fixating on normalcy is killing your happiness and your relationships.  It creates insecurity and depression and dims that gorgeous shine.  Worrying about what could have been, rather than realizing how wonderful you are, was ruining you. Never allow the fact that you aren't like everyone else take away from your self appreciation.

2) Change isn't always good.  Change for your own growth and development is fantastic.  But changing because someone else wants you to is ridiculous.  You are who you are for a reason.  We are all on our own path creating our own environments.  You know what changing for the wrong reasons breeds? Resentment.  It fuels sensations of not being good enough.  It fosters lashing out and going numb, and sadly it also causes desperate changes. The truth is you shouldn't try and love someone you want to change and vice versa.  Real love is appreciation of that person in their strange, messy, wild entirety. And, if someone wants to change you then they don't appreciate you and that is just down right ludicrous.

3) Forgive yourself.  You are worth a love that is so bright the sun envies it.  You are worth everything you want.  But, in order to believe this you need to forgive yourself for being you.  Forgive yourself for hurting others in your past.  Let go of the mistakes you made and who you use to be. It doesn't define you.  Let go of the resentment of rejection.  Forgive yourself for your life and accept that all the dark moments made you appreciate the delicate beauty of your stars.  Your journey isn't perfect but it made you who you are and that is nothing to be ashamed of.  None of us are perfect but I think you're pretty damn close!

I found it surreal that two men who look like have it all in life were suffering. It made me think of how many other men out there are in pain. They felt sad and broken and worst of all ashamed.  I couldn't understand how the world had tossed them about so much that they didn't realise how magical they are.  So I did what I could do to encourage them to shine. Like we should all do. And, I realized where I had made breaking point mistakes in the past through hearing these two men.  I became conscious to feed a warrior with this heart and never tear a good man down.  Some days we get so caught up in expectations that we completely forget to just listen and comfort.  Thanks for reading. XO

Toxic

Some times in life we have to let go of sh#t people and sh#t circumstances and become truly healthy.  This means cutting the strings of toxic relationships that are weighing you down.  The following are three warning signs of toxicity.

1) People that put you down.  And, I don't mean when your bff recently told you she didn't like the bob you rocked in grade nine put down.  I mean when someone puts you right down.  When a person insults you, they are toxic.  Don't forget misery loves company.  For many years I tried to think that those people needed attention and friendship but the truth is anyone who spends time insulting you doesn't actually deserve a second of your time.

2) People who discourage you.  Have you ever been around a person that really sucks the life right out of you? They suggest that you can't get a better man, house, job, etc.  Well let me tell you, you can do whatever and get whatever you want in this life.  Haters gonna hate.  Toxic people don't like others to succeed.  They prefer that otters don't try and they often manipulate people around them so whenever a person tries to tell you that you cannot do something evaluate your relationship with that person.

3) People who manipulate you.  Toxic friends will make you feel bad and do things you don't really want to do.  They will not care about your comfort level or what you want to do.  They are selfish.  They will feed on your insecurities and lure you into what makes them happy.  If you feel unhappy and like you aren't ever doing what you want with someone again reevaluate.

As we grow older we grow stronger.  As a survivor of domestic abuse I personally can see the red flags of toxic people early.  However toxicity exists in our friendships and families.  Don't sacrifice your happiness for misplaced loyalty.  Thanks for reading.