What am I doing?

Not all blogs have positive and happy focused outcomes.  I am not pulling the wool over your eyes or misleading you.  Some days I have no idea what I am doing or where I am going.  From dancing to the end of days with gin pumping through your veins to spin class with the office girls life can be confusing and the following are three reasons why that is 100 percent fine.

1) Life doesn't have a road map.  The truth is we are all shying away from being socially outed for our eccentricity.  Everyone has a dirty little dark side they are terrified of at varying degrees.  Who cares? Life doesn't come with a road map.  You don't hop out of the womb and your mom hands you a life road map and your set.  We are all the blind leading the blind and you can bet your demons are just as wild as the person next to you so relax.

2) We all get lost.  Some times no plan is the plan!! Some times you really feel the reality of this crazy thing called life and it is terrifying and exciting all at once.  Some times there is no rhythm or pattern or constant.  Some times you are literally fumbling along at the speed of light with no idea of anything.  The fantastic thing about it is there is actually nothing expected of you.  Just keep going.  Throw all your stupid ideas of love, romance, success, everything out the window because you truly only have one life.  Start living.

3) There is nothing to control.  All those people you see in control aren't actually.  They think they are but there sense of purpose is fleeting.  No one controls destiny.  She is an untamed mistress.  The truth is you could drop dead tomorrow.  You could get sick.  You could lose the love of your life.  Anything could happen.  The only constant in this life is the uncertain.  The only sure thing is that nothing is for sure.  That is the wild, crazy, sexy side of life that too many people try and shy away from pretending they control their outcomes when in actuality no one does.

On days recently I realized I have no idea what I am doing or what I am looking for.  I used to think a defined idea of things would give me perspective but the truth is perspective doesn't matter.  Accepting that flying through life with no control is reality is startling.  But looking good doing it may be the only way to go.  Thanks for reading. XO